Hello, I'm back and tonight I hope to have adiquite time to write an entry
of acceptable length. Unlike the last three time I have attempted to
write to you this time I do not have to rush off to hockey soon nor do I
have the over hanging thret of dinner on it's way.
I feel as though I have been born again into the hands of Luke Skywalker
It may sound strange to you but the feeling is one of love happieness and,
though I do not wish to acnolage it, a feeling of empending doom. I have
felt this feeling before but then I did not know of the eventual outcome
and the emotion thrived on my inocence. Being nieve as I was, I did not
feel the impending doom and there-for totally enjoyed the experiance
compleatly. I have a new Star Wars book and the feeling that I love Luke,
I adore Mark in a very deep maner but due to the fact that I have never
truely met the man I cannot truely love him. Luke on the other hand, I
feel I know all there is to know about him and I enjoy learning more in
each page. Luke's thoughts are dignified and wholesome, his actions are
brave and heroic. He has one flaw and it comes in a package know as The
Crystal Star. As Darth Vader put it "That name, no longer has any meaning
for me!" I do feel in my hearts of hearts that my destony is not fixed
and I am in charge of my own actions.
I grow more and more tiered with every word I type and I hope to god
that I can stay awake long enough to finish this letter, take my shower
and get into bed. As my eye lids droop I remember my book, sitting on
the shelf waiting for me. I don't believe I have the energy or enthusiaum
to read much more than I already have today. I must go now.
And that, ladies and gentleman is why you should always keep a journal, preferably on a computer without spellcheck, so that you can embarrass yourself on the internet 16 years later! But seriously, I'm glad I have so many old entries like this, because it's hard to imagine being full of teen drama and angst, but I'll always have these as a reminder. So when my daughters are heartbroken over their love for Harry Potter or something, I'll be more sympathetic. Perhaps.