Zolpidem is better known by its non-generic name: Ambien. And it is magic. Sweet, sweet, dream inducing magic. Now before I start sounding like a druggie (which I totally am not, really. I don't even like pot. But it's fine if you do. No judging) let me tell you the story of how I discovered the magic of zolpidem...
I got pregnant when I was 23. (on purpose) And because I was a young, first-time, paranoid prego, I refused to stay on any of my anxiety meds. I didn't even eat sushi for a whole 2 trimesters (sushi should be categorized as a drug, it's sooooo addictive). But my anxiety-addled brain was not a fan and I got really anxious, depressed, and near suicidal. The anxious thoughts kept me up at night. Not sleeping increased the anxious thoughts. And it just spiraled until I finally agreed to take something to help me relax and sleep: zolpidem. And, like I said, it was magic. It let me sleep while my sweet daughter practiced headers with my bladder. It soothed my mind when I was afraid her never-ending hiccups might somehow damage her (or me!). It gave me a reliable one night of full to excessive sleep a week. And therefore I survived pregnancy, and I even relaxed enough to have sex while pregnant a couple times (that was a big deal, since I was the opposite of so many women and was way to anxious to be horny while knocked up, which pissed me off, but not as much as it disappointed my husband).
So zolpidem saved my sanity for that last horrible trimester. It also introduced me to some trippy times, because, as I discovered, waking dreams happen sometimes on zolpidem. Usually in the form of dream characters floating above my bed in a not-quite-like-tv, not-quite-like-real-life, semi-interactive state. The first few were the most memorable, the octopus was the first, and kind of weirded me out, but my favorite was when the pirates were totally cheering on our... bed business. Nothing like a little hallucination to really turn up the heat. heh. (ok, at this point I think my dad is really regretting reading my blog. sorry, Dad.)
Zolpidem helped me get through a second pregnancy and now is just another tool in the arsenal of things that help me cope with (or escape from) extreme anxiety or panic attacks. (and I'm careful not to get hooked, blah, blah, blah. only use it rarely, blah, blah, so shut up, no judging, remember?)
That's how I'm going to put this little A to Z challenge to bed (so to speak). It's been a fun ride and very challenging Stick around for the A to Z swearing challenge next month, which will be a lot sillier. Untill then goodnight. ZZZZZzzzzzzz.... (haha just kidding, I still have to finish dinner, do the dishes, put the kids to bed, do laundry, and watch Bones with my husband, but after that! Sleep!)
I totally want to be part of the A to Z swearing challenge! That sounds like a freaking blast! You start it, I'll do it. Jennifer a.k.a Urban Gypsy GirlReplyDelete
I wish it were my idea. Sign up here: http://hypnoticbard.blogspot.com/p/swearing-to-z.htmlDelete
Stopping by from your comment on the Blogging from A to Z April Challenge Z post on Facebook!ReplyDelete
No judgement here! I had a small bout with Advil PM when it first came out.
Thanks for stopping by.Delete
Advil PM does and the other OTC sleep aids do nothing for me other than make me groggy, but still anxious
No judging, and that medication sounds like fun. Maybe I shall ask for it at my next dr. appt. ;-)ReplyDelete
You totally should. ;)Delete
The A to Z swearing challenge sounds like fun. So do these drugs! Congrats on doing the challenge!ReplyDelete
You should join the swearing challenge, click the linky banner thing over there ----->Delete
Yay! Good job on the challenge. I need the opposite of ambien. I am so sleep deprived that I can fall (and stay) asleep any time I sit still.ReplyDelete
I think that's called caffeine. ;)Delete
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